Well... that is the title of this blog post i could come up with? really? even i am surprised. i have opened this page so many times in last few days then closed it down as not able to think anything to write and today it just struck me - my blog is a random blog and i can write any and everything about what i want. Randomly!!!
And just while typing this a word sprung to my mind. (SPRUNG - is that really a word? the red line doesnt appear on the word so i m guessing it is. and in case i wrongly used this word what i mean is spring ka past tense ;) ) so that word is "procrastination" the dictionary meaning of which is the act of replacing high-priority actions with tasks of lower priority. Like writing a blog instead of finishing up the due PR article :P
That is, sadly, in my life is a very small example of real sense of procrastination that me doing. Certain life changing decisions are to be made and i m delaying those for few lesser important. Why do we do it? Why do i do it? I mean why don't i do it? I mean why don't i stop not doing it? I mean why don't i stop doing it? Uff its confusing!
Since two three months i feel i m running in circles. Life has changed. Tremendously. Beyond imagination. And i feel more powerful than ever before (not cause the weight gaining that is happening but emotionally) I thought doing things for others is just a mere weakness. I thought the one who is not confident of one self does this. Wait! I dint always believe that. Its just the past one year that i started believing that. So interestingly i stopped believing something that i always believed for something that i never agreed on and now realised how right i was then. (the first time, i mean) This is the circle i am talking about.
But hey that has nothing to do procrastination. Procrastination comes now. My delay in putting into action the beliefs that i got back. I mean the one i was talking which i had initially. I mean the one i had before last year. The one about being selfless, putting others before the greedy me. But why do i feel bad about being selfish. The entire world is selfish and so i am. Do i sound like a teenager? To my mind i do? Even certain actions of me speak that way? Is it because i never acted like one when i was suppose to? i acted all matured and responsible. But i was one!
Anyways that is not the point. Shit! we were talking about procrastination. I mean i was talking about it. and if you are still reading upon, i can FOR SURE say that you either love me too much to stop reading this crap or you are scared to death that i will SPRING (like the bouncing spring ha - like in movies the goodie heroine surprises her best friend - or may be life akshay kumar of dil to pagal hai - what a film dil to pagal hai ha!) and ask you questions and you prefer reading this than peeing in your pants for not reading it through. In either cases, thank you for reading. I mean thank you for continuing to read. But that reminds me that do i really scare people? Or they just do it to boost my ego? And if they do should i hate them for lying or love them for being so selfless?
So coming back to procrastination and my delay of decisions what i don't understand is why do i do it? I mean i know the sooner i act on the decision the better it is for me to START MY life. I know START MY life sounds funny. But i know you know what i mean. Because all quarter life criseser (like employer, messer, etc.) is going through it. And if you don't let me tell you, let me rub it in for you - all these years that you had thinking that is life was just a warm up - life starts now. When you have responsibilities and financial calculations and jazz. I am not going to bore you with that. What i mean is like how life started or a fresh start happened from school to college, it will be the same now. Only WORSE.
But why do i talk all these and not about what i am suppose to? man now i m bored... i will write about it some other time.. so fellas (i know most of you are guys ;) i am signing off but i will come back soon and i swear i will write about procrastination!
PS: i haven't spell checked or grammar checked it. so don't mind :)
And just while typing this a word sprung to my mind. (SPRUNG - is that really a word? the red line doesnt appear on the word so i m guessing it is. and in case i wrongly used this word what i mean is spring ka past tense ;) ) so that word is "procrastination" the dictionary meaning of which is the act of replacing high-priority actions with tasks of lower priority. Like writing a blog instead of finishing up the due PR article :P
That is, sadly, in my life is a very small example of real sense of procrastination that me doing. Certain life changing decisions are to be made and i m delaying those for few lesser important. Why do we do it? Why do i do it? I mean why don't i do it? I mean why don't i stop not doing it? I mean why don't i stop doing it? Uff its confusing!
Since two three months i feel i m running in circles. Life has changed. Tremendously. Beyond imagination. And i feel more powerful than ever before (not cause the weight gaining that is happening but emotionally) I thought doing things for others is just a mere weakness. I thought the one who is not confident of one self does this. Wait! I dint always believe that. Its just the past one year that i started believing that. So interestingly i stopped believing something that i always believed for something that i never agreed on and now realised how right i was then. (the first time, i mean) This is the circle i am talking about.
But hey that has nothing to do procrastination. Procrastination comes now. My delay in putting into action the beliefs that i got back. I mean the one i was talking which i had initially. I mean the one i had before last year. The one about being selfless, putting others before the greedy me. But why do i feel bad about being selfish. The entire world is selfish and so i am. Do i sound like a teenager? To my mind i do? Even certain actions of me speak that way? Is it because i never acted like one when i was suppose to? i acted all matured and responsible. But i was one!
Anyways that is not the point. Shit! we were talking about procrastination. I mean i was talking about it. and if you are still reading upon, i can FOR SURE say that you either love me too much to stop reading this crap or you are scared to death that i will SPRING (like the bouncing spring ha - like in movies the goodie heroine surprises her best friend - or may be life akshay kumar of dil to pagal hai - what a film dil to pagal hai ha!) and ask you questions and you prefer reading this than peeing in your pants for not reading it through. In either cases, thank you for reading. I mean thank you for continuing to read. But that reminds me that do i really scare people? Or they just do it to boost my ego? And if they do should i hate them for lying or love them for being so selfless?
So coming back to procrastination and my delay of decisions what i don't understand is why do i do it? I mean i know the sooner i act on the decision the better it is for me to START MY life. I know START MY life sounds funny. But i know you know what i mean. Because all quarter life criseser (like employer, messer, etc.) is going through it. And if you don't let me tell you, let me rub it in for you - all these years that you had thinking that is life was just a warm up - life starts now. When you have responsibilities and financial calculations and jazz. I am not going to bore you with that. What i mean is like how life started or a fresh start happened from school to college, it will be the same now. Only WORSE.
But why do i talk all these and not about what i am suppose to? man now i m bored... i will write about it some other time.. so fellas (i know most of you are guys ;) i am signing off but i will come back soon and i swear i will write about procrastination!
PS: i haven't spell checked or grammar checked it. so don't mind :)
